"Uncle" Jesse, my youngest, always & forever my "baby" and my first grandchild, Jimmy.  Jimmy will be losing his baby of the family status in December as he has a little brother or sister cooking in his Mommy's oven. 

How time does fly.  We will be celebrating Jimmy's first birthday on the 16th of this month.  It just doesn't seem possible.  (and then there is Jesse logging in as an adult at 21 years old!!!)  Jimmy seems to do or say something new daily.  The last two months have been a time of incredibly speedy growth for him.  He has started to eat solids, walks more every day, although if he's in a big hurry he crawls because he is a Mega-Man-Fast-Crawler (and it's so funny to watch because he gets going so fast by putting his right leg up front and pushing off with his foot, he looks like a frog), saying new words almost every day ....oh, my baby is becoming a true little person.

His favorite word is "Quack" and he makes us laugh constantly with it.  He had a tummy ache one night and Jessica pushed on his tummy to see if she could help him with a gas bubble.  He stopped crying immediately, looked at her and said "Quack!"  What does the dog say Jimmy?  "Quack"   How are you today, Jimmy?  "Quack"  Are you hungry Jimmy?  "Quack"  Do you want a bottle Jimmy?  "Quack! Quack!"

 We call him a Quack Head. 

First to my husband, then if that doesn't work to my knees.  Maybe it should be the other way around but that's my knee-jerk reaction (yeah, I know, bad pun)

My husband to cook dinner for me.  It was yummy.

My husband to cook dinner for me.  It was yummy.

Here is what I do at this moment ~ I love spring asparagus that grows along the roadside  here in Idaho.  I don't love the litter that lines that same roadside (you wouldn't believe the litter in rural Idaho, I've never seen anything like it in any other state that I have lived), so I take a bag for the asparagus and two garbage bags for the trash.  Unfortunately, the garbage bags get full much faster than the goody bag.

(also see quietlaughter's blog - she's a better writer than I!)

Do you know Sandra Jensen?  She is the Cultivator and Head Queen Bee at a lovely Pod here on Gaia,  Diving Deeper.  Sandra shares her "freefall" process of writing with anyone who would like to learn ... day in, day out.  She does it all selflessly, and of course, she doesn't get paid.

When I first saw this Pod, I was just floored.  It seemed too good to be true.  And, maybe for the first time in my life, something that seemed too good to be true wasn't!  Imagine my surprise and delight.  Anyone who has had any contact with Sandra Jensen knows her talent and also her generous heart.  She is a writer that you will see published and possibly even famous someday.  And yet, she continues to give to others because she believes in the process of freefall writing and wants to share her knowledge.

Sandra often gives us writing assignments gleened from a writer that she very much admires, Deena Metzger.  Now, Sandra has a chance to go to a Writing Seminar held by this woman that she holds in esteem almost as much as I hold her in esteem.  She put the idea out into the world so that it would be concrete and perhaps somehow happen. 

I'd like to help make it happen.  If I could send her the whole amount of money to go, I would.  Unfortunately, I can't.  But if we all send her a little bit, just a tiny pinch of what we have, she'll be able to go, I just know it!  So now her dream has become my dream.  She is probably cringing with embarrassment if she is reading this.  She didn't ask for money, she would never!  But let's give it anyway! 

See her dream here.

Help her on her way here.

Thank you in advance!!!!! 

Love To All, Ayla

If I had to answer honestly (and what's the point of answering these questions of not to answer honestly?) I would have to say that at this point I still have no idea what-so-ever!

It's a mix! I'm going "home" next week so I keep thinking about that, about packing etc. but that leads me to thinking about my past~ past experiences on visits with parents & relatives, childhood memories ~ so basically I'm just bopping back and forth between past and future while trying to get some necessaries done in the present.

I used to think that I would like to become enlightened (and who wouldn't?) but that isn't my primary goal anymore.  Fact is, I'm just too lazy to work at it.  I would have to be one of those people who just wake up enlightened and somehow I doubt that's going to happen!  So, for now, it's just to always be kind, not to forgive but to remember that there really isn't anything to forgive.  I also try to remember that everything I have is enough, maybe even more than enough.  And to enjoy every moment possible, to grab it, see it, cherish it.  To cry harder, laugh louder, love deeper.