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June 2009 
Hugs are Love
Posted on Oct 11th, 2006
by 
ayla
ayla
A wonderful soul here on Zaadz, Joybringer, brought the Hugathon to my attention -
www.youtube.com/watch - I have watched it over and over. It lifts my spirits and fills my heart with incredible joy every time I watch it. I usually find myself crying with happiness. It's just this little thing - a hug - but the film is so full of love that it touches the deep part of my being that cries out "yes!" I work in a small office and asked my boss to watch it with me. I could tell that he was thinking "here goes my weird girl again" but by the end of it he was grinning and saying "That is really neat!" ("neat" - yeah,he's kind of a dork....but a lovable dork). We hugged goodbye at the end of the day and that was really neat! (giggles).
Anyhooo, yesterday there was a big line at the Costco gas station, prices are going down (yay - finally) and they are 5 cents cheaper there than anywhere else. While I was pumping I couldn't help but overhear a conversation going on at the next pump. An old fella had walked up to chat with a business-y looking woman while he waited. He was really cute and making her laugh but I could tell that she was humoring him - not really getting the same kind of kick out of the conversation that I might have. Annoyed but being polite. I zoned out of the conversation, not wanting to be an eavesdropper but then I heard her say, "No, I don't need a hug" I looked up and her arms were crossed in a defensive manner, the smile still on her face but seemingly frozen there, not genuine. I almost flew over to him to say "I'll take a hug! I always need hugs!". BUT I didn't because in the next moment I was afraid that I would be somehow chastising her by my actions and I didn't want that either. I drove home wondering should I have just offered him a hug anyway? I really don't know! Maybe I could have melted some of the fear in her heart while I gave a lonely old guy a simple hug. My own fear (of how I might come off to the woman) overcame my desire to show love. I don't think that I'll let that happen again because it made me feel sad.
Anyone reading this - if you want a hug - it's all yours!
www.youtube.com/watch - I have watched it over and over. It lifts my spirits and fills my heart with incredible joy every time I watch it. I usually find myself crying with happiness. It's just this little thing - a hug - but the film is so full of love that it touches the deep part of my being that cries out "yes!" I work in a small office and asked my boss to watch it with me. I could tell that he was thinking "here goes my weird girl again" but by the end of it he was grinning and saying "That is really neat!" ("neat" - yeah,he's kind of a dork....but a lovable dork). We hugged goodbye at the end of the day and that was really neat! (giggles).
Anyhooo, yesterday there was a big line at the Costco gas station, prices are going down (yay - finally) and they are 5 cents cheaper there than anywhere else. While I was pumping I couldn't help but overhear a conversation going on at the next pump. An old fella had walked up to chat with a business-y looking woman while he waited. He was really cute and making her laugh but I could tell that she was humoring him - not really getting the same kind of kick out of the conversation that I might have. Annoyed but being polite. I zoned out of the conversation, not wanting to be an eavesdropper but then I heard her say, "No, I don't need a hug" I looked up and her arms were crossed in a defensive manner, the smile still on her face but seemingly frozen there, not genuine. I almost flew over to him to say "I'll take a hug! I always need hugs!". BUT I didn't because in the next moment I was afraid that I would be somehow chastising her by my actions and I didn't want that either. I drove home wondering should I have just offered him a hug anyway? I really don't know! Maybe I could have melted some of the fear in her heart while I gave a lonely old guy a simple hug. My own fear (of how I might come off to the woman) overcame my desire to show love. I don't think that I'll let that happen again because it made me feel sad.
Anyone reading this - if you want a hug - it's all yours!
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Ayla, I completely relate to your story, the impulse to give the guy a hug, then the second-guessing yourself and not doing it….I wholeheartedly back you up when you say that you don’t think you’ll let that happen again…I believe that it’s better to act from your heart, even it means that you might feel foolish in the moment…inevitability, the warmth of the moment you created stays with you….
Thanks for your virtual hug and here’s one right back at you!
Thank you Nishtha! I needed that! And here is a another hug for you as well ((((Nishtha))))))
very beautiful story. I seem to be that old fella. I recently handed out Free Hugs. My pictures are on my blog. It is wonderful to share this emotion. Our “normal” traine response is portection. I believe once we re-establish trust into society, we will more freely open ourselves to others. you are on the forefront dear. Keep your heart in the same place.