Everything's Gone To Shit

Dear Ayla,
I'm SO sorry to hear or your misfortune.  Please don't give up hope.  I know that DD has been pretty deserted for awhile, so I don't think it is any reflection on you that your postings haven't met with responses.  I, for one, think that you are a very talented writer.  You capture character through dialogue better than anyone on DD, in my opinion.  I have been especially impressed with your ability to write male characters.

I can't help you with your financial difficulties, but I just wanted to say that you are a pretty special human being.  You'll get through this.  It will get better.

Your neighbor to the south,
Jim (aka Rumi Wannabe)

Ayla…we need to talk…

Ayla … I am here for you. I talked about you throughout the weekend … and you know that you mean a great deal to me. I very much wanted you to be with us. You  WERE with us!!!!
 
I too, love your writing and always feel like what you write flows from a source deep within you - (huh!!!! evidently that diving deeper stuff works!!!!)

I am so sorry for your situation.  I've been in a similar place in the past.  and have been through a really sucko time recently or I would have been more present here on Gaia. I repeat: I am here for you!

Holding you,
your neighbor to the west,
Peri

Ayla, so sorry you're going through this right now.  Sending you love and whatever you need to get through this situation, dear one.  Many blessings….

Me too Ayla, I'm here and Peri is right, you were with us in Oregon!
I don't want to sugar coat shit because it's still just shit but it won't be that way forever.
Sending my love, hugs and the intention to see this situation change into a blessing.

Hey, Ayla…I don't know you (yet), but I hear you. I've gone through a bit of shit over the past 6 months or so and definitely for about 2 months before the Oregon gathering. It wasn't until I got on the plane to Portland about 10 days ago that I was able to start letting go of the idea of a “lost summer.” I somehow, with the help of Gaia, regained what I lost and something better…

Anyway, I relate to you and want to send some positive energy your way… And, if you'd like to journey back in time to be in Oregon, feel free to visit my recent blogs. I wrote about this trip every step of the way so that my friends here who didn't make it would feel like they were there when it was actually happening…they say that it's helped. Perhaps it would be good for you, too?

Meanwhile, hugs and positve energy to you from me and everyone else!

Lisa

Angel Ayla, I'm sending the brightest light available to my consciousness.  Know in your mind's eye that everything will evolve to your highest possible good; trust, act, and most importantly, believe!

Dearest Ayla,

You can't imagine how many times I thought about you this last weekend. You should have been there, we all knew it. Your name came up again and again, spoken with that special inflection of love.  Though no one can really know how devastating this is for you, I do understand in a way. Life sometimes seems to whack us up the side of the head just when we think everything is finally going to be OK. Things turn and the sun will rise again, but it sure as heck doesn’t do any good to tell you that the water wheel will turn up again when you are being held under the water. What I can tell you is how very much you are loved here, by me and by every other person with whom I have ever spoken of you. Sometimes life does just suck. Period. You are a giver and as such you should be given to; you deserve life's richest blessings. I pray that this will pass quickly, be resolved and be only a memory. We love you. If you must leave us for awhile we will miss you terribly, but you will ALWAYS be a part of us, always be with us and we will be waiting anxiously for the day that you return.

Salt is good. I pray your tears will all be happy ones soon.

Love and Blessings ~ Dryad
Winnie

ditto to everyone else.

and trying to be practical here,  if we all sent some $$  - no matter how small, it would help in the short term and perhaps send a message to the universe that this gal does NOT deserve this. I've sent a private email saying this as if it were me I'd feel embarrassed about such help, but I'm saying it publicly here too in case others can join in.

S.

 

I don't know you and I know you probably don't want to hear any pre-packaged pick me ups but i do want to tell you that all the “shit” you are going through right now will one day be a memory of a time that life threw at you to make you stronger and wiser. sometimes it's only when you're down on your knees that you can look up to see God. prayers and blessings to you and your family.

hae

sweet Ayla, I hope that you will find some way to work this out with the finances… you are in my prayers, and I will email you privately - there are resources available to you, with all of these people, and through my work as well… be strong. It is a difficult thing that you are faced with, but not an impossible one (though you may feel it is) …. you are not alone.

xo
Leigh-Anne

Per Angel Sandra:

and trying to be practical here,  if we all sent some $$  - no matter how small, it would help in the short term and perhaps send a message to the universe that this gal does NOT deserve this. I've sent a private email saying this as if it were me I'd feel embarrassed about such help, but I'm saying it publicly here too in case others can join in.

I have a Paypal account; I can spare some money.  Would it help?

Ayla, I'm flat broke or I'd help you too.

But all I can give is my hug from over here and tell you that you are loved and cared for and 'that word' does not apply to anything that you do, don't doubt that.

It's going to change like everything does. But please hold on to that hope and see how much all your friends think of you and care in this place here. This ain't no ordinary community girl!

Gosh, you're not even on my friends list hahaha I saw you on the feed for Paul!

Don't give up; you've done a good deed by reaching out - both in the past and right now.

Be well and be blessed.

Much love to you, sherri

Ayla,

You have my love and positive feelings through this troubled time. I worked in federal tax law for a couple of years, and it can be trying, but it is also full of turnarounds and fair play if you have good legal representation. This does not make what you are going through right now any easier. I wish I could take your troubles on me instead. You don't deserve this.

As far as DD goes, there is very little sharing and caring going on right now. I have read some of your pieces and each of them are delightful. Your ear for dialogue is impeccable and you seem to possess no fear of letting characters talk. I am even so bold as to reccomend that you take some time to write your way through this crisis… your lovely creative heart still beats with a magnificent rhythm.

Love,

Eric

Dear Ayla,

My love , and hugs go to you.
Though I have fallen , I will rise,
Though I sit in darkness,
The lord will be my light
-Mccab 7 verse 8
When I was going through hard times a friend gave this to me.
I have seen many dark times in my life .
Yet , right now so much light is shinning.
I have had nothing , and out of nothing came so much beauty.
We love you ,
Loriann

Oh, Ayla!

You are a blessing to people that you don't even know ~ how many times have I read your comments on my work and gone “Oh! Ayla!” but not to “dis” others' I said the “appropriate thanks” and all that… but you don't know! And, Oh! your work sometimes leaves me with nothing to say… just amazing.

And the work you face right now, leaves me, as well, speechless. (almost;)

Prayers and Reiki (as accepted), I send to you throughout all of this.

If you post an address, here, and everyone immediately sends you at least $1 in the mail, wrapped in a piece of paper, right away, you'd have more than $20 bucks in a couple of days. That ain't much,  but every little bit helps. Even those of us who have close to nothing, could scrounge up a dollar.

You game?

Is everyone game?

Post an addy, girl!

Namaste, dear one…

Claire

Oh Honey, I'm with you too.
Remember, this too shall pass and you can negotiate with the tax people.

All is not lost. Things will get better, one step at a time.

This will bring your wonderful family closer by pulling together
& working together to solve this problem.
Think Postive, Believe in yourself, You are LOVED..

Big Hug,

Ladybear

i'm with claire amd will jump on that!

but this is takigng more than money, its taking self-love and radical aceptance of what is, even though it sucks.

and if it is any consolation, i just wrote a shadow steeped blog post too. but with me there is a “i should be happy as shit right now” situation at hand. i am about to march right over to my blog and post a new one that will get us laughing our asses right off!

i see how your spirit is already comng around too. thanks fo rkeeping it real with us cus we arent all in la-la land all the time here.

and take in all that love and generosity, babe! from me too, even though are new friends.

love,
mary

I'm not on your friends' list, but I followed Mother Mary over here.  My heart goes out to you and your family.  Just remember that when you hit rock bottom, the only way is up. 

Love you,

Peace Seeker

Dear Ayla & family,

If you are penniless and without assets and food as it certainly sounds that you are, you should qualify for emergency food stamps through your County welfare office.  Be clear with the receptionist that you need EMERGENCY assistance, that you have no food and no money, and they have to process your application within 24 hours.  At least that's the way it is in most states. 

You'll need your ID, and a birth certificate for each child in the home, pay stubs if any and a recent bank statement, and utility bill to prove residence.  (If you can, call in advance and find out what verification they require so that you can do it all in one trip.)  You can also go into St. Vincent DePaul's and Salvation Army to request a food voucher and a month's worth of groceries.  Many local churches have assistance programs as well.  No one likes to have to ask for help but it's there and that's what it's there for and someday when you're back on your feet, you can return the favor.  Many times I had to go to a food bank to make ends meet as a single mom.  Times are tough all over! 

Hang in there ~ we're all rooting for you!  And thanks Paul for sounding the call. 

Peace,

Julie

Yeah, What all those folks said.

       You're one of my favorites.

                  My hearts with you….

                                    Big Hugs,      Joe

My in laws were close to losing their house, sold on one of those zero interest mortgages and then numerous medical bills (why don't we have national health care again?), but my wife got them to call the county and they got help immediately, and an advocate for dealing with their debtors.
Call every number you can:  Churches, food banks, local, state and federal offices, your local congressman.  The good news is the system works both ways; it can chew you up, but also once you are in it it can keep you afloat.  Talk to your landlord or mortgage lender, let them know the issue, see what you can do to not lose things like a roof, a car, etc.  The more you reach out, the more that comes.
Just look at this email.
Good luck!

Ayla,
I am sending you love, my friend.  You are such a kind and gentle soul.  Please know that you are in my thoughts and in my prayers.  We are all coming together to help you through this.  Stay strong and know that you are loved.
Hugs!
-Susan

Dear friend

I to know that this will pass although its little consolation when you are'' in it ' I ask you to believe this is a experience you re not alone in.
I send you love and pray for your strength and well being..
I know what it can be , I have experienced a similar time and felt numb at times with the unfolding of it all…
I shall email you to see if I can be of any help…
As I do not know how to create a link yet ayla  I have posted a video on my blog for you now,
 it is to let you know that you are never alone, all here will help, do what  they can and send you so much loving energy.
I send you hugs and blessings, love to you and all your family…

Ange

My dear MoonSister,

Yes, 'this too soon shall pass'…
I definitely recommend getting some public assistance/food stamps…
With your hubby away most of the time, you ARE a single mom and single moms need all the help they can get….especially at a time like this when we hit speed bumps.

This IS more immediate and local as far as assistance. I have been in this position too!
You really WILL get some help by the next day, or even the same day.

I send you my Love to you and yours~~<3

Ayla, I am here following Paul's call for someone needing help! I join all our sisters and brothers here in sending you love, hugs, prayers, light…. Yes, this too shall pass and you'll get over it.  As Dryad has so aptly written, the wheel must be at the bottom now, but it will surely rise up again.  There's a lot of pratical advice here which I hope you have taken a note of plus the sincere gesture of financial help.  Am going to see how I can help further by checking out what others have come up with.

dear ayla,i just happened to go over to dd and just happened to click on tree house and saw sandra'snote to come here. I feel horrible and feel like I need to help you some how. i will call you today. I am not sure of the time difference or i would call you right now. I think it is the middle of the night there. I wlll try later. I can't believe this. what are you going to do? How can they leave you destitute like that. you need some income to get more income.  I am going to try and get in touch with you. love, jenni